Boy, can I ever get down on myself. The last 3 weeks since cheat weekend I’ve been so down about dieting. I weighed in at 175.2 today, which means I’m down about 3 pounds since the Friday before cheat weekend but I’m still not satisfied. I actually feel fatter right now than I have in the recent past, despite weighing less. I’m not even down about Keto, Keto is going fine. We’ve really shaken up our menu the last few weeks and have been eating very well. As I’m writing this I’m eating scrambled eggs with cheese. I’m not giving up.
I’m down about weight loss in general. It takes such a long time! Dieting is not hard, all you have to do is say “no”. Time is what’s really hard. Time goes so fast and so slow all at once. I know, I know, I have nothing but time, but still! I’m so angry/upset/frustrated. I know I won’t give up and I know the scale will move and I know there will be days or weeks like this where I just hate that I made myself fat and that I am now dealing with it, but still! I guess I’m mentally battling time more than I am mentally battling being on a diet. I guess that’s kind of progress, I could be mad I’m on a diet but really I’m mad that time hasn’t sped up so I can see what I’ll look like in 6 months.
Keto round 4 started today. After our cheat weekend I am very excited to get back to it. I already have a wicked headache, mental fog and grouchy attitude, it’s weird how carbs can have such a shitty effect. I didn’t weigh in this morning but I did yesterday and I was up 4 pounds, of course it’s all water weight, but it’s still so annoying to see. I felt so bloated this weekend and I didn’t even really go crazy. I just ate normal sized meals that happened to have carbs in them. I missed fat a lot. And I also miss not feeling like garbage. As much as I like having cheat weekends, Keto is much more beneficial. Not only do I lose weight, I also don’t feel like such a massive bitch all the time like I do right now, coming down off my stupid carb high.
We’re doing 8 weeks of Keto this round because we have a trip planned at the end of October and I’d rather cheat on the trip than here.
I really hate going through Keto flu, it’s so gross. I’m lethargic and super angry, I’m basically no fun right now. Hurry up Keto adaption, I miss you.
I’m done my third round of Keto as of this morning. I started at 185.6 on July 27th and am currently 177.4! I lost just over 8 pounds in 6 weeks! That is a great weight loss amount. A pound a week is what I generally am aiming for so the extra 2 is like a free bonus! Our cheat weekend starts today and ends Sunday night and then I’ll be back on the Keto wagon for 8 weeks until our trip to Quebec City.
I’m really looking forward to getting back to Keto already and the cheating hasn’t even started. Round 3 has definitely been my most successful attempt at Keto. I think what made it particularly successful was meal planning. On Mondays we would go to the grocery store and get everything we needed for the week, which meant I was always concentrating on getting the proper fat/protein/carb ratio in my meals. Will absolutely be continuing with this method going forward.
C’mon round 4! Would love to be in the 160s by the time we leave for our mini trip!